Choices of the heart

Love in its own self, can make a heaven of any hell and a hell of any heaven. A fish and a bird can fall in love but where will they live? It's true to say that love unites the strangest people. It follows no rules. But one of the most painful things in life is losing yourself in the process of valuing someone so much that you forget that you are special too. It's like surrendering your soul to someone who doesn't even seem to appreciate your burning desire to be with them. You spend too much time hoping, longing and in the process you lose sight of who you are and your self worth. Never leave words unsaid. Bellow it out of your lungs if you have to and sigh in relief. Breathe and let your heart rest because all your life, it sought for something you cannot even name.

Maybe for you, true love is not the kind of thing not to turn down and neither is it the kind of thing to give up. Maybe, just maybe, you are waiting for a ship that already sailed or even a train that has already left the station. Nonreciprocating love on the part of a friend can be damaging if you find yourself as the one doing all the giving. Some people never get over it. Life would have been easier if we could just pick the people we fall in love with. Then we'd not have to struggle and deal with not being loved back. It even gets worse when you find yourself in such a tough position and worst of all, when this 'centre' of your sweet emotional chaos finds somebody else and falls in love. 

I learned a long time ago to never leave words unsaid. This is because the heart wants what it wants. That still remains indisputable so you might as well get it over with. What I've seen is that most people struggle with with the threat of failure because, literally, it's only thing that gives a young bride on her wedding day cold feet, and a mother saturated with the feeling that she might fail at being a great one. Listen, and listen good and trust me on this, fear becomes powerful the more you live with it. Face it and walk away, that's how you get rid of it. Face the damn thing and do what you were going to do anyway. I think as humans, we let the possible outcome scare us in to not making use of the opportunity when it presents itself. 

Do not take things for granted, If you are reading and you find yourself in this uncomfortable situation, speak up, chicken! Speak up, it'll not kill you. I mean seriously, whats the worse that can happen? What's worse case scenario? Who knows, spring may be just around the corner for you, even summer. Even the common things can become extraordinary so forget the fear you've been struggling with. It's imperative that you realize that you can not make a life changing decision based on emotions because emotions are unstable. So before you break the handle on how you feel, you might want to let the feeling run its course. There is something about joyful storms that interrupt the routine of always trying to sacrifice your happiness for others. You also deserve to be happy so speak up now because whoever they are, they can't hear you.